2004-01-23 - 10:50 a.m.

Why do you hurt me like you do? I mean, in your mind it may be honesty but really it is all the things that you have nothing to do with. Not completely anyway. So how can I act around you? What am I supposed to say, what to do? I mean, yes, you care, yes, you have been very helpful but now I want to do it on my own. You do not know the whole truth, I will never tell you everything. Never is there one person who is entirely to blame. I am as much at fault as the other. I am not perfect, I dont want to be, nor do i expect other people to be like that for me.

I am tired. I have fallen behind in school and I know that I can do so much more than what i have fallen to. I mean, C's? come on, I know that I can do better than that. Its ridiculous. My parents are getting uspset with me, and i have let myself down. Really, there is only one thing that I am comforted by and I have started drifting away from eveeything that was normal to me.

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