2004-01-28 - 8:37 p.m.

I need a change of pace!!! Its so strange for me to be the one announcing this because I usually take comfort in the repetitiveness of my days, but if I dont find some time to do something emotionally stimulating, or just silly and stupid I will freak the hell out. I want some surprises, like waking up in the morning and finding more snow, or recieving mail from an old friend...Eish. I dont know. But I seem to be outgrowing my home...Is that at all wierd? I seriously am living in this future kind of dealie where Im already at Dreamschool and I love it because I have my own life and a whole bunch of new people to get to know. All of the rules that my parents are putting on me, cant go out with him, stay home study, dont listen to music when you work, blah blah blah, its all so ridiculous. Maybe they are just trying to control me these last months as much as they can because sooner or later I wont be here. Mentally I am somewhere else, in a good happy place... Not that im depressed and feeling inadequate, because thats far from the truth...I just need my air because theres too much of me.

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