2004-02-29 - 9:03 a.m.

I need to stop disillusioning myself and believing in fairytales with fairies and the eternal struggle with good and evil. There is never going to be that morally good person who is so beautiful and saintlike that you do everything you can to be like that. The closest I have to that is an actress, and all she was doing was filling a role... I should just accept the fact that things are not going to go your way...ever. That means that what I want I will never get. THat means that I am completely wasting my time.

I am so sad and torn about what happened last night. I have inherited my father's temper moreso than i want to admit, and I have inherited his stubborness also. It took so long for me to regain and grain of sanity and then go back and apologize for being so short. What i got in response was really offending and hurtful but I should have expected that. I was really sincere... I really meant it, and this time i knew that I was a hundred percent wrong. I took it really seriously and am still taking it seriously.

Poshel ti k chertu! ya daje na tebya smotret' ne hochu....

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