2004-06-29 - 12:00 p.m.

The golden silence it broken...Ok maybe it has not been a golden silence, more like a rusty and not so glorious silence. Work is good. Its not really work, more like hanging out and going out into the sun for 1 hour periods at a time. I get a hell of a lot of cut offs and clean ups so I have no reason to complain about anything. The only thing that has happened was that I got my feet burned and have this ridiculous sandal tan...

Other than that...I miss everybody so damn much. The only person I have seen recently and talked to was J, and everybody else... Yeah. I have no idea what is going on in their lives. Depressing, yes, that is the word. Life has been very confusing, these last few days everything has escalated to a state of utter chaos and confusion. I dont know where to go and I am burying myself in a shitload of lies. I loathe the day that my father has driven me to this point. I will see my boyfriend and nobody can stop me, especially since the end of august is so fast approaching.

I am not doing so great. I can say that easily. There are so many things pulling me away from myself and so many concerns and very obvious distractions (think: lockers). Its not even about that, I am wierded out by so many things. DAMMIT, need GIRLS NIGHT on the town.

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