2004-07-31 - 9:41 a.m.

I just quickly want to say that I am in a mood that will result in sudden death to anybody who decides that it is alright to mess around with me. Its because I have not been able to do what I want, and work has become so ridiculously hard and tediously boring. I am drained.

I am a very frustrated person. Yes, yes, emotional would describe it very well. I think I am lossing my grip on my place in the world. I am maybe a little depressed, but that I do not like to show to anybody. It never trully hits home until I am alone at night; when I am with somebody then it is more of a looming emotion, not bearing a figment of truth. I cannot believe that I must go, that he must go. I just cannot accept that as the truth... It is not true.

And if you make plans fucking keep them... But whatever, I will not pursue that subject. Screw it, says i.

Just let me go and cry, feel sorry for myself and my 'fate', hating my parents for not understanding and myself for not being together anymore.

I NEED TO GET AWAY FROM THIS PLACE. things are just not enough anymore. And I feel alone, and so cold and sad.

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