2004-09-29 - 8:08 a.m.

Hey guys.
I am barely hanging in here. My life has spun out of control around me just as my work load began to get harded and my sleep rarer. I am having trouble here. Socially, I am doing much better than before because I have met more peoople. but...emotionally I am the biggest fucking wreck. I am talking about that again, and complaining, because I cannot go through my day without at some unseemly point choking up and realizing that I cannot do this, that the separation has turned something off in me and that I have slipped out of emotion. It frightens me, especially when I look at my life with a sensible, controlled manner...

This is how it is. I do not know what to do or say to save this. I do not know if it can be saved. I may not be trying as much as I should be.

Fucking A. The reality is, we are strangers in two foreing countries.

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