2004-10-31 - 6:32 p.m.

what a useless day.
I had a dumb ass argument that left me thinking about the purpose of friendship, the definition of love, the role that i am supposed to play in other peoples life, and if im being an ass. Am I an ass? that is the question of the day. was I wrong to turn it on myself again....

About things that we never share. Im no longer having the thoughts that would have ultimately led me to my destruction, but now its more of a physical form. Lets wear myself down right now....

Im really distressed. I cannot make a difference in the way that i want to. I am having lots of nightmares. I am getting fat. I want to run away guys. This place isnt for me.

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