2004-11-13 - 12:23 a.m.

Do things happen for a reason?

I was notified today that my calculus class was officially dropped. I was relieved, but that sudden instance of euphoria was quickly replaced with the feeling of inadequacy, the feeling of running at fall speed and suddenly crashing face first into a solid brick wall.... But this is the right way to go, i know it. I will be able to get everything together, finally make all of my ends meet, correct my own personal problems as well as my academic ones.

These past few weeks have been so incrediably difficult and it is sad to say that very few people actually knew the extent of the distress, my loneliness, and my sadness. I felt like i had reached a low that i had not glimpsed for a very low time.

Thank God for my good friends, for those loyal, loving people that stood by my side, listened to me pour my heart out over the phone or via aim. I greatly appreciate everything that you have done for me.

I think that i just might be able to see the light at the end of this tunnel. I think that i will be alright.

Love, V.

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